I realise now that the operations were somehow easier to deal with. Ok, much less easier on the mind, but somehow there was a beginning and end to it. I will feel crap for 4-6 weeks but in reducing levels. In contrast Chemo plays with you in crueller ways. There is no way of predicting how you will feel and no rhythm to it. For example I felt relieved on Wednesday and Thursday but dreadful Friday and today. The tiredness is nothing like I can describe, not a very useful sleepy tiredness, but a leg and arm twitching can’t concentrate tiredness. And all I want to eat is sharp salty flavours to spike the sickness. Sorry to moan. Normal service will resume next week I am sure.
The good news is my boy is back from the war and off with his big brother playing bowling tonight and my daughter is at the X Factor rehearsals so I have some wonderful support. Thanks to everyone for all their kindness and support, I really couldn’t do this without you all. xx